Runaway Train!

Here's a question. Why is it that when you're near someone you really like (I mean like like), your brain shuts down and your mouth takes over? Why? Every single time! It's ridiculous.

See, I don't flirt. I just don't. I play video games with guys. That's my flirting. For some reason or another, though, someone took over my brain today and decided to make me flirt. It's the drasted gremlins, I tell you! I know it was them! They laid their eggs in my ears, and now they're in my head!

'cause see, there's this guy I like. I mean lots. (I was informed by my friend that I've "got it bad".) And he showed up today after church for the dinner thing we were having, and BLIMEY did he ever look cute in his tie. I mean, normally he's a shorts-and-flip-flops guy, which is hot in itself, but this was a different sort of tidy hot. And the gremlins decided that I wouldn't remain invisible, and that he would totally notice me before I'd leave. Some time after dinner, my friend was bugging me that she was bored and wanted to go, but the gremlins wouldn't let me leave. So I marched over to his table and sat down across from him (so I wasn't being so obvious as sitting next to him, but he could still see me), and I just started cracking jokes. I don't remember specifically what I said, but I mean I sounded.... confident? Don't know where that came from. At one point I had him laughing over something stupid.

The weirdest thing was I said something to someone else that was slightly funny, and he looked over at me and smiled, so I returned the smile in a kind of "Thank you, I'll be here all week" kind of smile, then went back to my business. But he didn't stop looking and smiling! I mean, it wasn't like a stare, but he was totally looking longer than a normal look. I mean, I thought he was looking, but I might be reading too much into it... *shrug*

He was being all goofy playing on the Wii, and I got out my camera and filmed him jumping around trying to figure out how to do a right hook. It was quite entertaining. So when he finally sat down, tired from playing, I got up, leaned over his shoulder, and showed him the video. He thought it was funny. So I kinda walked off, said "This is going on Facebook!" and nudged him on the shoulder. Yeah. I mean, not like a creepy sensual *shoulder touch*, but I definitely touched him. Which is freaky for me, 'cause normally when I like a guy, I can't even look straight at him.

It's the drasted gremlins, they hijacked my brain, I tell you!

(Don't tell him, but I hope the gremlins don't leave...)