'ello!

Me again. Like whoa, guess what... I'm in! I'm actually in that acting school now! *dies* I mean, I'm accepted, but there's still the matter of trying to figure out if I actually want this or not. I mean... huge commitment here. To the point that... by next Wednesday, I'm either acting, or I'm not.

'cause I would get a scholarship, but only if I'm totally committed to this acting thing. I can't just be doing this to see if I can. Now, I know I really want to act, but then there's the ultimate question... how lazy am I? For me, dreams last until I can actually do them. After that, it's like... I already feel like I can do them, so...

I dunno. I'm not making much sense here. So, am I ready to have my life totally flipped around by Wednesday? Or do I still want to just be normal and sit around and watch TV all day without having to worry about anything at all.

I'll give you a major downside as well. Remember my rant about being the jester? That I don't have friends, I have audiences? That's probably the worst thing I can think of about show biz. Friends will be really hard to come by, especially loyal ones. Everyone will want to bail at the first sign of trouble. Hollywood isn't exactly known for its loyalty. Can I handle just being the jester to have a dream job?

Oh, blimey, the answer is totally yes, isn't it? *sigh*

Yeah. So.... I guess I'm gonna do it. I'm going to IMTA.