Oiy.

People are stupid. They always expect me to be there for them. I'm always expected to come running if they ever need help, and to support everything they do without question, and they get mad at me if I act even slightly different than they planned on me acting. But they don't listen to me. If I got all my friends together in one big room and asked them to write down what they thought I wanted to do with my life, what job I wanted to do... NONE of them would know. If I asked them what I was thinking about for college, they wouldn't know that either. NONE of my so called friends know me, because they just don't listen. I'm a hanky, not a friend. And when it comes to my dreams, they don't support them either.

My play? The one that I was so excited about? I was talking about it for months. I told everyone I met what character I was playing, telling them about coordinating the sword fight, the woes of learning my lines... I told them that stuff every week, to the point where they could almost recite it. I got told so many times "Yes, you've told me that before." With all that hype, you'd figure they would know that I was excited, eh? NONE OF THEM CAME. There's you saying "Well, you're exaggerating. SOMEONE must have come." NO. NONE. Quite literally zero. They were too busy, or too tired. My best friend just plain didn't want to come. My best friend's family couldn't find the church, gave up after five minutes, then turned around and went home.

I guess I'm not exactly the type of person that inspires loyalty, am I? My so called friends abandon me and take advantage of me whenever they get the bloody chance. *sigh* I'm just the Jester.

Remind me to post that Jester short story after I get it rewritten. It's not great, but I think it gets my message across.